I must confess that I have not been able to accomplish much in this past month. My husband, the IT Genius, set our home up to facilitate being able to work remotely from home. All things tech are networked together and it had always worked with hardly ever any hiccups. My Best-Girlfriend, My husband passed away (someday I will be more at ease with "he died") last April. The following week ALL of the devices and tech schtuff - quit working. I am NOT Tech savvy. At best, I was another one of the "stupid users" he dealt with on a regular basis. Now - - - I AM just an average user. Being able to join in to your platforms and the others that I have recently found has been wonderful on the one hand. The $515.00 bill for last month's data usage was not at all a good thing. 70GB of data used! My plan was for 20GB at $90/month.
I am now thinking of asking those I am following if they have a Pauper's Allowance for situations such as mine. Widowed April, 2019. Fixed Income. Limited physically in what's available for me and at this moment in my life; I have NO idea WHAT I am going to be when I grow up!!
This form is most likely not where one should write about such things. I am grateful just getting out of bed in the morning. I have recently been told by other widows that yes, my "feeling like I gave my brain away" while not unheard of, It IS not at all Enjoyable. I KNOW I use to could DO things! I did lots of things and knew about many. I look forward to being able to at least do something I use to in the near future. It does get unnerving at times.
For now, I will say adieu and when I am able to figure out how this schtuff works -- I will be happy to supply feedback on it all. I do have My Story. I've been told by many over the years I should write a book. I'm starting here. Today. Putting one foot in front of the other while I Eat My Elephant. You might ask: "How do you eat an elephant?" Answer: One really tough bite at a time. I LOVE GOD's wonderful sense of humor! Watching a Nature video on a particular pride of lions, the camera zoomed in so close I could see her teeth as she attempted to bite into the baby's hide. No luck!! WOW!! That explains a LOT!! They ARE very tough and I decided they must have toe-jam considering I began at the foot. The only "Else" that makes me laugh is my Favorite Bumper Sticker. I wish I would have gotten this one! It made perfect sense out of my entire life up to that moment as I entered 4-year University. "SHIT HAPPENS" YEP!! That explains everything and it hasn't changed one bit from then all through Brain Cancer and Death and Dying for one so young. I AM, and have been from the beginning of the GBM Ride, wrapped tight in the PEACE of GOD that Truly surpasses understanding! Let the others rant in the HIGH ANXIETY! world that we have been placed in for Such a Time as THIS!! I might NOT know WHAT I'm going to be when I grow up, I do know a good portion of me will be pleased to remain childlike in my wonder at how AWESOME is Our GOD.
So remember folks: The internet only works because it runs on P.F.M. My Dear Sweetheart told me this as he explained how to route LAN's and WAN's when building his 3rd Call Center.
PFM = Pure Freakin' Magic!! LAUGH!! Randy had every one of the doctors and each and every person that passed through taking care of him Laughing until they rolled in the aisles! It IS GOD's BEST medicine!
Our ASSIGNMENT: We have been given something in our day that we must find. When found we must Point and Laugh so everyone around us can join in the laughter.
Mostly - Laugh at yourself!! We really are a bunch of loonies!!
Thank you for allowing me to vent this out of me and onto a different platform.
GOD BLESS US ALL as we Press In and Hang on Tight!! The GBM Rollercoaster Ride was loopty-loos, upside-down, underground, going backwards — in the dark! And from the moment we saw the "fist-sized, medium avocado" tumor behind his right eye - - -
My hands shot up to the Heavens and I proclaimed in a LOUD VOICE: GOD HAS GOT THIS ALL!! and as they wheeled Randy back for more tests, the ER Nurses and I had a very loud and mighty PRAISE JESUS AND HOLY SPIRIT TIME behind the curtains. Complete and Absolute TRUST in HIM Who Made us ALL. FAITH IS WHAT I CONTINUE TO STAND ON. I may not know where I am going, I might not know what I will be doing to address my financial needs when I get there. None of that matters at all except that JESUS IS.
I have not stopped Proclaiming JESUS MESSIAH, YHWH GOD ALMIGHTY EL SHADDAI, HOLY SPIRIT, Contrary to some mistaken belief, IS ALIVE AND LIVING IN GOD'S CALLED OUT AND CHOSEN AND HIS PRAISE WILL FOR ALWAYS AND FOREVER BE ON MY LIPS!!
JESUS IS MY REASON IN ALL THINGS!!
GOD HAS GOT THIS ALL!!
AND, AS LONG AS HE SITS ON HIS THRONE —
ALL IS RIGHT IN MY WORLD!
AMEN!!
Bestest Regards,
Debora White
~In HIS Grip~
always and forever!
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